Patience is a virtue...most of the time

I am very much the type of person who is laid back and doesn't let things get to me.  I'm pretty go-with-the-flow and I've found that being that way causes a lot less tension and stress in life compared to people who are uptight and dramatic.  Of course sometimes you just can't help the way you feel about certain things.  Even with my laid back-ness, I tend to get insanely annoyed with myself when things do end up getting to me, but I'm guessing I'm not the only person who does that.

Patience might as well be my middle name.  I am a very patient person and probably more so than I should be.  I've heard people say that being patient and not pushing for what you want will get you nowhere, but I disagree.  There's a lot of honor and trust involved in letting things happen on their own.  It's not always the easy way to handle situations but that doesn't mean it's the wrong way.  Though there are those times when you become weak and your patience wears thin and afterwards you want to punch yourself in the face out of frustration for being an idiot.

Obviously this mentality does not apply to all situations.  There are times when you need to absolutely get yourself out of something and not wait to see what happens or to see if things will get better or if people will change.  Everyone has situations like that in life, but it's knowing when to be patient and when to get out that makes all the difference.

I love myself, as everyone should love themselves.  I love my personality, my sense of humor, my eyes and my butt.  But there are times when I hate myself.  A few of those times being when, in high school, I made out with a guy who had a girlfriend (which I was aware of) and let him get to second base, or when I talk endlessly about my feelings with my boyfriend and feel like I sound annoying and needy, or when I lied to my parents all last year about who I was with and where I was going, or even when I eat so many Skittles that I feel like puking.  The key to limiting those moments of self-hatred is to surround yourself with people who make you love yourself, people who bring out the best in you and don't judge you when you slip up.  Even though I'm only 21, I have been through enough to know which people are good for me and which people are bad for me.  I used to be friends with a few people who were jerks and made me feel stupid and put me down a lot just for being me.  I've been friends with people who made me uptight and caused a lot of unnecessary drama.  That's not who I am and those people are no longer in my life more than they need to be. I am a patient and laid back person but I definitely won't tolerate people who try to change me or put me down or anyone who tries to do the same to the people I love.